Is JESUS asleep?

Good Morning Y'all! Let's spend some time together in Psalm 27 this morning, and let me share some honest thoughts from my heart. The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread? I read those WORDS this morning and I bowed my head and I said, "FATHER, THIS IS YOUR WORD. THIS IS TRUTH. YOU ARE MY GOD. YOU ARE MY LIGHT, MY SALVATION, MY STRENGTH. WHY AM FEELING OVERCOME WITH DOUBT AND DISBELIEF? WHY DO I CONTINUE TO STRUGGLE EVERY MOMENT OF MY DAYS LATELY?" And then I continued reading. When evildoers came upon me to devour my flesh, My Adversaries and my enemies, they stumbled and fell. Though a host encamp against me, My heart will not fear; Though war rise against me, In spite of this I shall be confident. And again I cried out to the FATHER. "I KNOW THIS TO BE TRUE. I KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOD AND THAT NOTHING COMES AGAINST ME WITHOUT YOUR APPROVAL BEFOREHAND. I KNOW THAT JUST AS YOU ALLOWED JOB TO BE TRIED YOU STAND AT THE GATE AND KEEP WATCH OVER EVERY ONE OF YOUR OWN, AND YET, MY HEART FEELS FEARFUL AND I SURE DON'T FEEL CONFIDENT." Did you notice what I said? I said..."I FEEL".
Can I tell you this morning that how I feel has nothing at all to do with WHO GOD IS. I told HIM this morning that my human heart wants to cry out and ask HIM to fix things NOW, but I know that HE IS GOD and HE is working. I am thinking even now as I type this about how the children of Israel must have felt. Did they feel abandoned? Did they feel like GOD had left them to work it out on their own? Did they feel like HE didn't care? How about Job...what did he feel? How about how the disciples felt on crucifixion day?
It's easy to be a Christian when I FEEL GOOD. The reality of life though is that I'M NOT ALWAYS GOING TO FEEL GOOD. I was sitting here just pondering and talking to the FATHER and sharing my heart and my thoughts, and I remembered something that a wise man told me one time. He said, "Vicky, it's easy to be a Christian when the water is smooth and everything is going good, but when the storms rage and the winds blow, DOES YOUR ANCHOR HOLD?" I was thinking about my recent times with the FATHER; We have many times over the last month or so talked about something that took place in Mark chapter 4. The disciples were in a boat with JESUS crossing the sea. You might remember it...the storm came up and JESUS was asleep in the boat. When your life feels tossed and tattered, and it FEELS like JESUS is sleeping WHAT DO YOU DO?
Do you keep believing what you know to be true? Do you run to HIS WORD and hold fast to WHO HE IS?
Right before I went to Germany the beginning of this month I got an email from a sweet Christian friend. She wanted to assure my heart that she was praying for me. I felt like I was going through a terrible storm...still feel that feeling even today. She said the following words to me, "Vicky, before our LORD delivered the man who was possessed by the legion of demons HE BROUGHT HIS DISCIPLES THROUGH A TERRIBLE STORM." When she wrote that I didn't get it, I missed the point; but in the days since I have returned from Germany GOD has CLEARLY SPOKEN THIS INTO MY HEART. Before JESUS did the miracle in the life of the man possessed by the demons HE BROUGHT HIS DISCIPLES THROUGH A STORM. My heart can only ask, "FATHER, ARE YOU PREPARING ME TO SEE YOU PERFORM YET ANOTHER MIRACLE?" Does that sound silly to you? Does it sound like I am grasping for straws? Let me just say this: In the almost 6 years since the LORD JESUS set my heart free from serious bondage HE has proven faithful to HIS WORD at every single struggle in my life. In the BIG HUGE HURTS and in the seemingly small struggles, HE HAS BEEN FAITHFUL THROUGH EVERY SINGLE RIPPLE IN THE WATER. Why would HE be any less faithful NOW? I will close this morning by reminding you and me that HE IS WHO HE IS AND HE CANNOT BE LESS THAN THAT! HIS WORD IS TRUE and WE CAN HOLD FAST TO IT and WE CAN KNOW THAT HE WILL NEVER FAIL US.
THANK YOU FATHER THAT YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY WHO YOU SAY YOU ARE. THANK YOU THAT WHEN THE WIND IS STRONG AND WATER IS DEEP AND IT MIGHT EVEN FEEL LIKE YOU ARE SLEEPING...EVEN STILL YOU ARE GOD AND YOU ARE GREATER THAN THE MIGHTY RAGING SEAS IN OUR LIVES. THANK YOU FOR REMINDING MY HEART AGAIN THAT THE ENEMY WOULD HAVE ME DESPAIR, BUT THAT I MUST TRUST THAT YOU HAVE PROMISED TO CONCEAL ME IN YOUR TABERNACLE AND HIDE ME IN THE SECRET PLACE OF YOUR TENT. YOU ARE GOD AND YOU ARE GREATER. THANK YOU JESUS. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU. I LOVE YOU...IT IS IN YOUR MIGHTY AND MATCHLESS NAME THAT I PRAY. AMEN